hush now.

Hush now,

It's hard to notice time,

And death is raping your thoughts, 

But one day soon will come a dawn and all will be as it should.

Hush now,

Take a bite,

It's alright to feel,

We were created to after all.

Hush now, 

When friends have gone home,

The loneliness you feel so overwhelms,

Don't dwell, indulge.

Hush now,

Life may have left you but momentarily,

Get past now and you'll be fine.

-Ai Leen.

I've been finding it ever so tough to get over the whole drama of having my closest friends leave for foreign lands. Even as I speak another girlfriend is packing her way through to leave on Thursday. So many have left and I'm here, wondering if I'll ever leave. On the flipside, don't think I'd wanna leave even if I had the chance to. Doubt I'm able to go through the goodbye(s) especially when it comes to him.

It's indeed very difficult but yeah, lovelies across the seas, know that I'm missing all you souls! Can't wait for June/July to swift by & we'll be hanging out again, just like the ol' times :)

without a bye.

Have a safe flight tomorrow morning, babe.

Don't forget to keep me updated alright! :)

xox.

and i bid farewell.

Brrh, I'm still all emo-fied :(

Yet again, another close friend leaves for Australia. Wasn't an easy goodbye but we all managed it well enough. The airport - always filled with either happiness or sadness, and this time it was filled with the latter. I tend to be pretty good with farewells but on certain occasions, I fail at trying to keep it all in especially when it is about somebody who has gone through many of the ups and downs in life and still remains as the same supportive soul throughout everything.

Told ya, it wasn't easy at all.

At least for them, and me..

Ian Yun, we go way back man. And I mean, really way back! There are so many memories to recall from that I just don't know where to start. We had our awkward moments, best friend moments, stranger moments and the list goes on. There is still something that I feel utterly horrible about of which I shall remind you about it when the time comes. But yeah, at the end of it, everything turned out well and we're both happy people today :) 

You've been amazing, really! You were there when no one else was, you would support all the way without backing out, you would make the effort when no one seems to be taking initiative, you would spill your concerns out when no one else would, you would just be you. And I thank God for a really good friend like you :) Thanks for everything, Ian! I'm gonna miss you heaps so come online often alright. Now go forth and be a good boy will you? Earn Ozzie bucks and spend me coffee 8) Just fly safe, you! :)

And, how could I forget Kat? :)

squishy fleur.

A bunch of us had some massive Roti Tisu fun last night! Thoroughly massive, I say. It was a short time of fun, bonding and mainly giggles :) Short and sweet, really. Well it was actually Ian's farewell because this boy is leaving to Ozzieland on Monday night! Pfft.

Three plates to secure one Roti Tisu.

Go figure!

This whole week's been pretty tiring for me. Going back for classes surely isn't my forte, hee. Having classes from 8 right up till 6 in the evening is not funny. But today's schedule didn't seem too bad for me :) I ended up bringing a really pretty flower home! Wheee, happy girl on the loose 8) I was obssessing over it by taking heaps of pictures with different angles throughout my last class, haha. It's actually made up of tissue by the way - totally triggered the curious nerve in me.

Thank God it's Friday tomorrow! Like literally. Finally a day where I can wake up much later than usual, hah! Surely sounds like an amazing plan to me :) Guess I'm gonna call it a night, so nights!

Hear me out: Awe-struck by B.Reith.

tagger-mania.

Mah homies.

Sweeet.

So, I got my interview questions from Sonia! She always has this kinda cool cum interesting yet original tags, haha. Well, here goes!

1. Leave me a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
2. I’ll email you five questions, of my determination not yours!
3. You update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. Coke or Pepsi? Why? Details please.

Coke! Hehe, well simply cause Pepsi is a little too gassy & sweet for my liking and it has the special taste to it, somehow. Hee! Right Sonia? ;)

2. Orc, elf, dwarf or human. Which would you like to be? (no half-sies please :D)

Hoho, elf! Okay this question only reminded me of Legolas *grin* so it's an elf for me, all the way baby! Hehehehe.

3. One language you would love to be able to speak/read/write.

Mandarin, definitely! I'm such a handicap at Mandarin alright. Though this year, I've improved my vocab a little already! Bangga sial :D

4. Describe your best friend.

Azalea, Lydia & Mohan are pretty, gorgeous and extremely special ladies. I don't randomly have like 10 best friends so yeah, these three individuals mean the world to me and yes, they're always always amazing. :) They've never failed me, at all! Another best friend who well, is none other than Jan! Needless to say, he's everything la, hee!

5. Have you ever met/touched a celebrity? Who, where and how?

HAHA. I have touched many celebrities. On paper/magazine/posters, hahaha. No, really :) They're none other than Orlando Bloom, Paul Walker, Josh Duhamel, Adam Brody, and you know what? The list just goes on and on ;) How? I just, touch them la..

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Aaand, Chloe tagged me too! It's a tag each other world out there, hah.

Once you've been tagged, you're supposed to write a note of 10 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged.

1. I've decided to not buy the Guess bag that I've been eyeing for some weeks now.

2. I finally satisfied my Tom Yam craving today with Lyds!

3. I'm emo-fied 'cos more lovelies are leaving in February.

4. I bought hair dye, heee!

5. I like guys with nice nails & fingers, haha.

6. I feel like having Bubble Tea right now.

7. I can't wait till the summer holidays arrive!

8. I dread going to class everyday, without fail. Heh.

9. My table is so messy that I'm gonna explode. Like, boom!

10. I had Bak Kut Teh just now, yumm. 

Oh, I chooooose.. Ian, Sonia, Alexa, Rachel and Lydia :)

braces.

The four of us, well it's actually five but yeah, we were the black sheep, hee! We were the naughty ones who sat at the back of the class, making heaps of noise and of course, we never completed our homework. *grin* But, we were always the first to go for additional classes, haha! How ironic, yes? Two years of braving Math and another two years of the horrible Add Math, and only because we aced our Modern Math ;) 

Confession: I only looked forward to classes because of them! And food? Hehehe.

We did everything in class, haha. Anything, just name it! I would actually let you know what we did but on second thought, it's okay la ;) Anyhow, I finally met them after some years! We didn't change much but Hann got thinner and has braces even if he already had perfect teeth! (reason for braces: it's a family thing), Jayson got buffer (cough!), Seira lost weight (though she's not admitting)! and I lost weight too? Haha, this is what two years (or more?) can do to us! But deep down, we're all pretty much the same whacko bunch. Was really good catching up! :) It was like only yesterday we had tuition class together, I do miss those days man. Hmm.

Just so he doesn't feel left out ;)

Yeah, we had this animal thingy going on, haha!

Though it was like back in '06.

Take one!

Take two!

"Now we're like those kinda people who take pictures in the mall.."

speediinho.

Yeah, that's what we know him as :)

Again, I stepped foot in the airport. This time was for Jon and sadly, I missed Azy just by a call, soigh. Was pretty bummed out 'cos well, he left to California. Haha, I love California and Jon's a close friend. Hmm, guess I'm happy for him :) ..with much envy too, hee! Nah, really. He's such a clown and at the same time, a pain in the butt. But yea, he's a really good friend - one of the few whom I still look up to and know that he's not the lalang material :) He's just Jon. Ah, another thing, he amazes me with his unfailing love for skinnies, haha! :O

Don't shed tears unless there's a valid reason to do so.

The six of us who went over to send him off were pretty much controlling our emotions knowing that it's gonna be their turn next.  Well, obviously not mine but yeah, the 5 others. It's sad having to part from a bunch of friends who eventually grew very much closer through the years. Plus, knowing that there are a few more closer ones who are leaving at about the same time as well - February, makes it all the more worst.

Memories just keep flickering around and I can't help but to ponder and take a breeze walk through memory lane once again. It's indeed a fact that I've become very closely knitted to my ADP friends. The first bunch of people I got to know in the first sem of college itself. And that changed everything, until this very day. It's not easy seeing them off. Not at all.

Hear me out: Leavin' by Jesse McCartney

it's a girl thing.

Today in history, we learn that even I can lose my voice, hah! Can you beat that? It hurts btw so yeah, pfft. Sadly it has been getting worst by the day. Too pain, too pain. 

Okay anyway, for the past two days, I've been spending much time with my girls :) I mean after all, they deserve my time since they're all gonna be leaving soon enough.

Rewind, rewind, to Sunday evening! We had dinner at Mohan's place since she's leaving tonight and yeah, we just needed to spend some time together, girly time. Initially thought of eating out but finally resorted to cooking in. We picked out nuggets, sausages, fries, pasta and bacon! The oil and the carbs, haha. Then again, the best tasting food are always sinful; all that oil, fats (bacon fats, yumm!), sugar and it just goes on. It's all fat-provoking food, haha. We obviously found out who the cooks were and who weren't, ahaks! *grin* But the food were really good, hee! Though we kinda over-estimated the food amount. :p Having food over bonding time was plain awesome alright!

Non cooks: Lyds & Azy.
Cooks: Mohan & Sarah.

Haha, but they helped out a lot! 

Like defrosting the nuggets..

And dropping the spaghetti :D

Yay, pretty! :)

And hohoho, Monday's bubble fun! Headed over to The Curve after lunch to meet up with Sara, Alexa and Rachel. To my surprise, Daryll was there too, haha. Not so much of a girl thing anymore, huh? ;) We pretty much stocked up on some bottles of bubble liquid as well as a whole box of that goo thingy that you can blow up your own bubble through the little straw. Reminiscing the childhood days much? We went up to the rooftop of Cineleisure to play bubbles. Yeah, we got a few glares and stares but it didn't really bug us much :) It was fun, really fun. We even had some Titanic moments there, hee. A little late lunch after and that pretty much concluded our day. There are more pics but my dear Alexa hasn't sent 'em over yet :)

Its like a disco ball :)

Sara being.. Sara.

The NYC laydee! :)

Random bit: I'm so gonna get an I♥NY shirt, haha.

Bubbles! Just keep blowing!

Can you see 'em? 8)

Broadway style!

And I am wearing shorts. There! *points*

Camel!

Hehehehe ;)

Just today, Azalea, Lyds and myself went to Sungai Wang to do some shopping but depressingly, we found nothing. Okay I found a dress but I guess it wasn't really a good buy so yeah I didn't get it. But Lyds got a pair of pretty ballet flats :) Really pretty! Hee. Ah, not forgetting, we went on a DVD shopping spree, haha. Now I've stocked up on the movies to watch when the assignments hasn't kicked in yet. Hehe. 

Oh, I got like two results back 'cos the other three are only coming out on Monday, pfft. I guess it's average, heh. Not good at all but just satisfactory. :) Though this makes me worry all the more for my other three papers, ahhhh! It was that bad okay, soigh. 

Ozzie cousins just left for home. Gonna miss the noise and stuff but yeah, we've got Facebook, haha! Ain't that bad I guess :) Real good to have 'em back! Anyway, I gotta head to bed now, goodnight all!

p/s: Bye Mohannnnn! Will miss you hun :)

2009: a year of faith.

And coincidentally I fell sick on New Years Day. What a way to celebrate the New Year huh? 

This year, I made absolutely no resolutions. I wasn't happy that 2009 arrived too early because I was dreading the fact that I'll prolly have to face many more things that don't seem too easy to go through.

Right after Watchnight Service, Jan and I headed back home after a long day out. Upon arrival at my home, we sat in the car and he started to knock more sense into this stubborn head of mine. I was being bitter about 2009 and was on the verge of giving up all over again. It's funny how I always thought that it was only me, myself and I who was going through this mess with that bit of support from the people around me. But I came to my senses and realized that they're going through it with me, or at least he is. :)

I guess that I could mainly thank God for the friends and amazing people whom He has placed around and in my life for the whole of 2008. All in all, I guess it was quite a good year considering everything that has happened and how things beautifully unfolded before my eyes towards the end of 2008. 

Jan has been an absolutely sweet and amazing backbone of mine throughout everything, from the start right up till today; Azalea, Mohan and Lydia have constantly had my back even when they were miles away from home with all that oveaseas calls, text messages and lovely emails to keep me from falling; Sara, Alexa and Rachel who always fed me with laughter and total randomness just to make sure there's always a smile on my face; and trust me, there are many more to list down but yeah :) Just to list a few more without elaborating - Tabster, Ian, Josh Teng, Arthur, Yih Khai, hmm they're all lovely people! They have been such sweet peas throughout this year in some way or another. What would I ever do without you peeps? Soigh. :)

♥

Such angels :)

Amazing babes.

Btw, we need to retake a new pic since Rachel is back! :)

In a nutshell, I'm greeting this new year, 2009, with a whole bunch of faith ready to back me up! God has been downright amazing in so many ways that I can't even keep track of. He has never let me go but instead, has always welcomed me back into His open arms of everlasting love. I would've never made it till today without God, my family and the rest of the aforementioned people.

Thank You Jesus for 2008.

And a whole bundle of thanks 

to the splendid friends of mine too!

Walk with me through 2009, won't You?

:)

xoxo,

sare -

last hurdle.

Finally after going through some weeks of agonizing exam stress, I'll be over and done with it tomorrow at 2pm and right on to youth camp! :)

The fact that we haven't had camp for two years makes all the difference there is. In the past two years and even more, things have changed so much. I changed. I practically took a 180 degree turn. Two years ago and today, I wasn't the same. I was different. My purpose of going to camp was different. My focus was different. My life was different. Life's circumstances were so different. This year's camp is gonna be different. I just know it. And let's make that difference in our life, through this camp and what's installed for us. Make this camp a significant one. Don't let it just waste away.

Honestly I'm scared but I guess I'm ready. It's a mish-mash feeling inside of me - trembling, tears, joy?

On a lighter note, I'm glad I'm gonna be in camp with my favorite girls! All finally back from overseas, it's sucha good feeling to have all of them, babes, back with me. Truly feels like real home now :) What would I do without them anyway? Hee ;)

Youth Camp 2005

"The 'bas sekolah' word has to be in too! Else it wouldn't be cool!"

HAHA ;)

p/s: I'm gonna be so screwed for my final paper tmrw. 100mcqs and TWO case studies in TWO hours? GONE.

there she goes.

Hohoho, to all the girls who are somewhat like me - shopaholics by nature, we scurry to any sale, browse through dozens of boutiques online and still end up unsatisfied, this is what you should be treating yourself to! :) It's like having the online boutiques come to live, hehehe. Besides you're able to see and feel them, clothes, instead of having to riskily decide through the computer screen with squinted eyes! I should know, haha. Sinful temptations, indeed. Ain't retail therapy the most (at least one of the most) amazing things in life? Haha! 

And we all know, their pricings aren't rocket high so I guess it's pretty good on the pocket, don't ya think? I know I'm excited! *grin* Just imagine all the clothes, accessories and shoes available in abundance. Hee ;) Just make sure you keep these dates free and treat yourself before the year ends. Click HERE & HERE for more details and information :) Trust me, it'll be fantabulous. Seriously!

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Bring it on and come what may? Finals are on Tuesday and it lingers on till the following Monday. Part of me says I'm ready and the other says I'm not at all. We'll see how it goes soon enough!

And yay, Azy & Lyds are coming back by this weekend. Oh, the loveeeee! :)

Hear me out: Stronger by Britney Spears.

touch down.

Just shoot! Cause I know you so wanna shoot ;)

Got it off Sara's blog and thought it was rather entertaining.

Anyhow you can either choose to shoot her or me!
Release all that stress now, will ya? Haha.

Have fun shooting me!

And so you know, shooting me a hundred times won't make me go away. Hah! I quote Sara, "It's not thaaat easy getting rid of me." ;) 

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Hohoho by Friday, the Mohan is gonna touch down in Malaysia! Yay after some months of being empty, I am now erm, full? Hehe. But awesome la, can't wait! Lyds and Azy, your turn soon! Hee :D

And to complete it (us), Josh and Xiong will be back too! Coincidentally, the last two to turn twenty! ;) Soonish huh? Hehe. Reunion babes, reunion and sleepovers! Ahaks! :D

Ah how I love the end of the year and of course, my crazy-filled friends :) Without them, my Christmas holidays just aren't complete. Seriously! YAY.

Oh and go to Sandra's blog to experience the Chuck Bass. Haha alright fine fine, not experience but to watch the youtube vid on him and trust me, you'll fall even harder for him! The accent and the look, heheheh! 8)

Btw, I've been pigging out so much that it's not funny anymore. I've been eating either McFlurry Oreo or Baskins almost everyday! Can you beat that? *sigh* Omg la, seriously. It'll be an absolute shocker if I don't gain at least A kilogramme this week. And even better, my mom just bought me a whole quart of Baskins (for myself) - Chocoloate Chip Cookie Dough & Very Berry Strawberry! Wahaha it's so awesome that I can't resist it. See what I mean? 

From today or tomorrow, Imma' fast on food and try or attempt to jog everyday. Now that 'tomorrow' is already procrastinating but hey, it's been raining almost every evening! Can't blame me, can you? Rawrr, fat fat fat. My worst nightmare might just come to pass. Noooo! *shudder*

Okay, byee!

shopping fast.

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I headed back downtown today and it sure was a whole lotta fun! :) Though the not so fun side is that I'm pretty much broke again. Nevertheless I love my purchases very much! Hehe. Anyhow after a sinful trip to Sungai Wang, we made a deal. Hahaha and that deal so very clearly states that -

*****
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Sarah is on a shopping fast/ban until October 6th!

Which also means, for ONE solid month okay.

(Which takes effect on Saturday night) :)

p/s: I don't know how I'm gonna survive, pfft.

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*****

So yeah, I think that the deal is the highlight of the day. Hee not forgetting my lovely awesome bajus :) Lalala. Tomorrow's the last day until my fast takes effect! Hehehe, rawrr!

And I really miss having Azalea around. Walking around the sixth floor of Sungai Wang and going through the very same shops totally reminded me of you, pfft :( December, hun, december ;)

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Am gonna be heading over to the Carnival tomorrow! :)

Goodnight everyone!

double-s.

I'm Olympic gymnastics worthy. Hahaha. Anyways, I was at KLIA last night to send my dearest Tab off, boo. I'm gonna miss those hugs and kisses you shower me with, love! :( Anyways, have a safe trip over there! Hee, keep in touch and I love youuuuu!

Anyhow, take a look at my pretty embarrassing Syiok Sendiri moment -

*does a flip and turns around*

Tadaaaaa!

*poses*

:D

I met up with some pals today and it was fun! :) Met up with some of the HMC peeps today and later on with some of the ADP girlies in Bangsar, hee. It was pure fun! Lalala, I've got a bunch of crazy cracko friends out there, haha! I almost forgot how long I was away from them. Hehe :)
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Arthur's got love for Geylang, haha!

He paid for my lunchie, yayy!

Thanks A-tuu! :)

The girls are in green 'cos we said it's a green day, yo! ;)

"Look at the camera la, not the mirror!"

They make my world go round :) Much loveee!

all about us.

It is all about random shots with very lovely people. People say each picture contains a specific meaning as to why, when, who, what and where it was taken. I personally am a believer that pictures have meanings. Pictures mean a whole lot to me because it simply captures the moment of feelings, enjoyment and something that we can never rewind back to. And all for the reason of memory sake.

With the bestfriend -

Who never leaves you during tough seasons :)

Definitely not a fair-weathered friend.

Significant momentos.

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Alas, a pampering session succeeded!

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We've got our own medals too! ;)

And finally, the left behinds :)
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