why?

over and over again. and all i can ask is just why? why why WHY??!!! gosh, WHY!

and i thought all this was finally over. trust. can i say that i've trusted too easily again? i dont know. it keeps happening. how can i trust you when things like this keep happening? i thought you'd keep to your word and i trusted. now... i dont even know. how long does this have to go on? how long will you take to just leave 'it'. no, im not making a mountain out of an ant hill but seriously, the little things. its the little things. damn boy, really. what did i ever do to get such a treatment or wtvr its called.

again i'd say, im just gonna pray that things get better for us as time goes. sigh. it cant go on forever. really. i know i wouldnt be able to take it then. sigh. i need sleep. im gonna sleep it off. i need sleep. lots of sleep. heaps of it. sleep surely cant make things better but it'll take my mind off it for a little while. and that would be really good for me.

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it sucks. im upset. dissappointed. sad. it hurts. so badly.