the barbeque.

its been a real tiring weekend, i admit. many things had happened and time simply passes too fast and im struggling to keep up with it. sigh. anyways, i had a bbq on saturday night at mohan's place and it was real fun indeed. was a night of bonding. fun and a time for catching up with one another. well, such nights really cant escape the vast amount of pictures being taken so here are some of them! :)

the girls that night.

this is azy and cla. they somehow smuggled my phone and took a pic with it. *cough*

presenting, tangy khai!

azalea and her bbq-ed marshmellow.

cla and myself.

supposedly, a candid shot. haha.

with azy.

and adeline. as cla would say, the most successful one among us. :)

this, joshua yap. his bbq pit was really stubborn. like seriously.

darren, whose bbq pit worked out well.

childhood memories. the crocodile and i :D

claryn faced her fears of high places. :O

azy and the bridge.

of colors and a pretty night shot.

us girls.

this is ian...

and yih khai, trying to get their tall-selves out.

by the time we got everyone together, it was about 8 something. we started to feast on the ice cream cake by cla's mom. it was awesome i tell you. yummy. then, as the guys worked on the bbq pit, yih khai served us apple pie! yeah, he and his mom made it. it was equally good as well. :) soon after, we started bbq-ing the chicken meat, sausages, potatoes, beef and lamb. we were all well-fed for the night, really. haha. we had much leftovers too.

i literally got carried and thrown into the pool! it was a real shocker, i tell you, as i got caught off-guard. rawrr. haha. oh well. yupp yupp :) oh and the bbq was also in conjunction with cla and sophie's bday but sophie couldnt come. :( boo.

oh and about ian and yih khai trying to get their tall-selves out- haha. it was cos we were too lazy to walk one whole big round to the other exit and the nearest exit didnt allow us to go through cos we weren't residents of the condo. so, lydia and i led them to the entrance we took cos our lazy-selves were simply too lazy to walk further. haha. jessica, cla, lyd and i had no trouble squeezing through. haha! but as you can see, ian and yih khai had some trouble. :p hahah! it was a hillarious sight. really! hahaha. however, the bbq was nothing out of the ordinary but it was sure fun, spending time with good friends. :)

p/s: at least this bbq had a better outcome than the previous bbq at ian's house. ahaks! :p

and another.

sophie, have a blessed nineteenth okay! :)

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heyy girl :) ehehe.

its been really great getting closer to you this year, especially during aim!

you've indeed, blessed me much, and others too, im sure. :)

have a great day on your birthday!

eat lots and dont worry abt getting fat la! :D you're not.

stay sweet and lovable. much loves, girl! :)

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its sad you cant join us tmrw night, but im sure you'll have fun as well at your grandma's :)

hehehe. i cant seem to be able to upload pics. ish, blogger's getting annoying. haha. but soon, i'll edit the post, with pics :) heheh.

the wife.

blessed nineteenth, claryn chong!

note: she also happens to be raul/torres's wife. ;)
haha, this title will only be here for today cos its your day. :p

a dedication to claryn chong;

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you're my oh-so-crazy friend,

one whom i can never fully understand,

your actions and doings, i cant comprehend,

your lameness reaches to the very end,

yet i still lourve you as my girlfriend. :)

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p/s: i really tried. haha. :D so you better appreciate it okay! :p

sheer stupidity.

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as i was heading home from college, my dad decided to stop by at one utama to get some coffee for a friend. so he parked the car at the side of the road, opposite the taxi stand (old wing). okay anyway, so as we were leaving, he signalled right to make a U-turn along the road. note that the road is a three lane road, or was it four. hrmm, but yeah, it was not those thin and narrow roads. then came this really stupid and idiotic motorcyclist, who tried to squeeze through my dad's right hand side. yes, he was making a U-turn to the right.

1. who is ever so dumb to try to squeeze through the right of someone who's going to turn right?
2. even more, you're on a motorcycle and not a car. yes, small but hallo! dont you wanna live? squeeze also squeeze properly la. omg, these ppl absolutely are like brainless chickens. seriously!
3. and do you even realise how much space there is? still wanna squeeze your tiny butt through?

not only was the motorcyclist at my dad's blindspot, my dad was driving at 20 km/h. note that it is really slow okay. next you hear a loud BANG to the right. normally you'd hear cars banging motorbikes down, but this is the total opposite. gosh! then before you react to look to your right, you see two youngsters flying off the motorcycle. yes, they really flew okay! their shoes, helmet, specs, and dunno what else flew off as well as the motorcycle flung to the other side of the road. my dad jammed the brakes and to find out that his WHOLE side mirror is GONE! really gone!!! okay, maybe just that. he stops at the side of the road, notices that not only the side mirror, his rims (those cover/capped ones. yeah i dont know how to explain) came off, side of his car dented and scratched. omg i tell you. it was a bad one.

seriously, the minute i saw those two people fly off the motorbike i was like, omg are they gonna die? i've seen motorcyclists flying off and dying or going into a seizure. i was literally traumatised and at the same time, totally pissed off at their stupidity. i was so ready to go and give them a piece of their mind. well, one thing is i thank God that they didnt die and only had like cuts and bruises. and i thank God that as they flew off, there were no other cars and the road was empty. and yes, i obviously thank God that my dad and i are safe.

fine, after damaging my dad's car, you say you dont have money to pay for the damage? omg, how stupid! you caused it and now you say no money. fine if its a kancil maybe its alright cos the repair cost wont be that expensive but excuse me misterrr! think abit man. you can afford to wear a pair of adidas superstar shoes and you have no money? ask your parents la, idiot! omg. they should so thank my dad for letting them go okay. yeah, amazingly and yet i dont understand why, my dad isnt asking them to pay for the damage done. and the cost to repair it will reach up to about 1k okay. ish ish, i dont know.

all i know for now is that, i really despise motorcyclists. please drive or rather cycle that thing properly and with proper caution can or not? sigh. and please value your life and have more common sense when riding your motorbike. squeeze here squeeze there. honestly, in my head i was like, "padan muka man. squeeze summore la, this is what happens." mean, i know. but seriously, logically thinking, squeeze when its safe and possible to squeeze. ergh. annoying crap!

alright, apart from all that, i am so thankful that the en102 research paper is coming to an end! yes, finally. i feel so free now but not that free afterall. assignments are piling up one after the other again! sigh. the sem is ending, and comes the presentations, big projects and the finals. oh, the agony.

well, thats all for today. the stupid motorcyclist totally pissed me off mann. sigh. anyways, back to assignments! more of, preparation for art presentation. hrmm, food art in japan. :) sounds pretty interesting. oh the sushi. :D hahaha. yeah, erm i would think that food makes me happy. heh. :p happy and hungryyyy! rawrr o.O

okay then, byeeee!

drowning.

blessed twenty-first, cherie! so big adyy! :D

i did realise that you have a jacket this colour :) i meant, the colour up above. hehe, random i know. anyways, hope you had much fun turning 21! :) im sorry im too busy to celebrate with you but we can celebrate when we're both free-er, okay :D heheh. anyways, its really been great getting to know you MORE and i am blessed! hehe. much love!

hey all! :)

yeah, its been some days since i've updated. i did attempt to do so, like yesterday, but it somehow didnt materialise. heh. :p

anyways, these past few days has been rather hard on me, pretty hectic indeed. i am so drowning amidst assignments and other responsibilities. assignment due dates are catching up with me. group members are getting really annoying- being irresponsible, not sticking to what was planned, trying to avoid work and pushing the workload to others. and then, they blame it all on miscommunication. pure nonsense, seriously. sometimes i prefer to work alone. ><

despite the annoyance and stuff, i realized that simple actions and outings with friends can really make your day. :) yeah, i do realize that this all is pretty random but i am thankful :) hehe. anyhow, i really should go study for a bit and then go to sleep :) and that wraps up today! heheh.

and oh yes, im looking forward to this week cos there simply are a few plans all lined up! :D fun fun plans. and im a happy girl. so yeah! hahaha. dinner and shopping and bbq and i dont know what else. *grins*

okay, byeee! :)

indescribable.

Indescribable, by Chris Tomlin

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From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea

Creation's revealing Your majesty

From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring

Every creature unique in the song that it sings

All exclaiming

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Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go

Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow

Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light

Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night

None can fathom

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Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

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Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangeable

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

almost a month ago, jo invited me to her church for 'Indescribable'. i was really touched by the video played entitled, 'Indescribable'. it showed how small and tiny we were in God's eyes and yet, He pays attention to us, He cares and loves us just the same despite us being so imperfect and annoying. yeah, we're like one little tiny spec in a tiny pixel of a spec in the pic up above. *points up* insignificant much, huh? so how can a God who is ever so mighty, majestic and wonderful who created the whole universe, would want to even send His only son to die on the cross for us, humans. well, that simply shows how much He loves us, doesn't it? and how much He values us- His children. :) i am really thankful indeed to have a God who loves me so much. :D

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indeed, He is indescribable. no humanly words can ever describe what a great, big and wonderful God we have :)

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and so, let us be the significant insignificance today! :)

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about them.

GIRLFRIENDS

p/s: we were all colorful too *wink*

the seven of us, 3 years ago. yeah, i know its an ugly pic. :p but i just had to put it up to show how much we've changed!! :D

and the seven of us, now :) 2007. a transformation, indeed!

yes, i am ever so thankful for my girlfriends. :) we've gone through thick and thin, the many years of puberty and nonsense and just many other things that simply brought all 7 of us together and we still are tight, yo! haha.

the seven of us possess very different tastes, personalities and attitude. its pretty amazing how the seven of us grew to be so close and yet, stay close up till today through all the years. 10 years? i have no idea. but we definitely have more years ahead of us, together! :)

okay anyways, so we went to t.g.i. friday's at the curve this evening to celeberate lydia's birthday. yeah, her eighteenth! :) and amazingly, all seven of us were able to make it! its been almost a year since we could all go out together- the seven of us. it was really good to be able to meet up with jee lian after a super long time since she's always busy-fied with.. *ahem*. :) yeah, you get it. but yeah, it was really fun, hillarious, and simply sweet. well, i'll allow the pictures to do the talking :) dont mind the berlambak-ness of pics. :) you seriously cant blame us cos its been a while we've all met up. heheh. :)

this was before the other 4 turned up :)

when the bday girl arrived- tadaa! *points to far right*

lydia, with the other 3.

uh-huh, i so lourve her :)

photo-taking session kinda started. ahaks, kinda ;p

i wonder where they were looking. hrmm.

jee and myself.

she is claryn! :)

we smashed some cake on her pretty face. :p

when the others went home, we went to take pic with the most inspired zip by nike. hahah. :D

thats basically it about today :) there are more pics but simply too much to post up and i've not received the others from the other cameras. yeah :) alright people, thats it for the day! goodnight all :)

p/s: i LOVE all six of you, muchos! <3

i give up.

so true, isnt it? well it is. :) at least for me.

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im naturally a very competitive person. yes, i've always been competing with others, be it in studies, sports, looks or anything for that matter. always striving and wanting to be the best and sadly, for the many thousand times i've done so, i barely made it to the top.

recently, i realized i've been competing very much that i always wake up and strive to be much better than other people. yes, without weighing out my weaknesses nor my strengths. however, with me having a rather low self-esteem, i try to boost myself up and to encourage myself that im better with doing this and that and stuff. when reality strikes, im struck right back to the ground, realizing that im nothing much. i realized that if i keep competing and trying to be that someone that God has not made me to be, it just wouldn't happen anyhow. so whats the use? its sad for me to realize that im not even up to my own standard of who i really want to be or be like. many times, i've been dragged down with thoughts like; im not good enough, im not like her/him, im not smart enough, im not pretty enough, she's/he's better than i am, im not talented/gifted, its just not my thing, i cant do it, etc. yeah, pretty childish huh? but really, it tends to bug me most of the time. so many times, that i keep hurting myself again and again just by thinking about it. i have even reached a point where its pretty hard for me to see the real value in myself, its so hard to see the good or rather whether is there any good in me. and in the end, i often doubt and tend to discriminate myself.

on the way home from youth today, i was thinking (yes, i think alot) about how much i've been trying to compete with others, wanting to appear better than the other person and all those kinda similar thoughts. i honestly felt really sad and ungrateful that i did not appreciate who God made me to be. yeah, its very human (or maybe its just me) to not want to be who you already are, to want to be somebody else who's better at everything, who looks better than you, who's smarter than you BUT i simply realized that God made each and every one of us different. different and special in His eyes, indeed. so instead of trying to impress other people or that special someone, why not we choose and focus on impressing God with what He has blessed us with? i know im wrong for discriminating and looking down on myself and stuff cos i will just be discriminating and looking down on God's creation and image, for we were created in His image. hence this is why im gonna stop doing this to myself.

yet knowing all this, knowing that i've nailed Jesus to the cross so many times for feelings this way, i am really trying to perfect my flaws. its really hard, i admit, but with God, all things are possible. and so, im just gonna leave this to God and not think too much about trying to be better and everything else. i give up on trying and wanting to be better than others, cos im just gonna be who i am- who God wants me to be.

p/s: yeah, i know its a pretty long and wordy post but i felt i should let it off my mind :) so hope you guys dont mind. :)

i thought.

okay, this *points up* is the pic that sara and i took before leaving the curve :) and very well before getting sick- food poisoning. see, we're so happy! :p we're still happy now though. haha.

anyways yeah, so today i thought that my food-poisoning was all over. at least, gonna be over. but no, it seems as though its still the same, just slightly better. *sigh* but nevertheless, i still thank God that im getting better! :)

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so my friday was rather interesting; in other words, i had fun la! :D yeah, notice the big grin. yeah so i planned to go to class late cos Ms. Nurtina always comes in late, you see. so i arrived about 4.40 (class starts at 4). oh i was supposed to arrive at 4.30 but it was raining! and the roads were pretty packed. haha. yeah :) so its not really my fault. i went into class and so Ms. Nurtina smiled and said "just sign your attendance and thats it for today's class". i was like "er huh? haha okay." yeah, so i travelled all the way to HELP just for a 10 minute class. hahaha. how fun, huh? o.O but at least i got my attendance :D hehe. was supposed to join jee and chris at centrepoint but i was pretty dizzy so i just headed back home to sleep. :)

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and yay! the holidays are here! :) term-break cum raya hols. so yeah :) however, i've got loads of assignments all piled up and im just so lazy to start! sighh. :( anyone's kind enough to lend a helping hand to the poor sick girl? :D hahah. :p nah, im hardworking ya know. so haha. yeah! i'll just do it myself. *grumbles*

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and to spm-ers! haha, study study study. spm's like very near :) i can so imagine how many of you are feeling now. its like mid october already. ;p no, im not rubbing it in. just wanting to boost you people to studyy! see, im so excited for you guys. :D okay, go study! honestly, i do miss school. so treasure your school days and study harddd!

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jangan melayari laman web/internet lagi tau. nanti, kesal kan baru tau :) jadi, padamkan/tutup komputer, buka buku dan belajar bersungguh-sungguh ya? nanti terlalu lewat untuk insaf. ;p

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p/s: i wanted to post up a pic of my bio book but i dont know where it is. haha. i prolly deleted it already. so hehe :) and i know the computer can be very very distracting. ;)

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okay then peeps, thats all for tonight! :) im off to my assignments. byeee. :)

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buka puasa food.

first and foremost,

blessed 18th hatchday, dungy (lydia)! :)

may you continue to grow more in the Lord, and stay pretty okay! :) and knowing you, dont be naughty during your 18th! :p much much loves, babe! :)

okay, other than wishing the birthday girl, let me tell you about my wednesday. it was pure fun i tell you. well, fun at the beginning la. so, sara and i went to the curve after class to eat doughnuts and to check out our work schedule at tribeca. (yeah, we're working there!) ahaks. after that, we went to taman tun to fetch rachel and then to join in the buka puasa crowd. you know, all those yummy and tempting food. being greedy, we bought quite alot of food- honey glazed chicken wings, beef rendang with lemang, cengkodok, sotong, kebab and sugar cane (the drink la!). yeah, i think that was all.

and only to find out today that the food was pretty dirty. gosh. and the consequences of dirty food is.. you pandai pandai think la okay. i know, pretty annoying. oh well! so much for indulging in good tasting food. prolly not that good afterall, huh? had to go see the doctor today which meant skipping my classes. thank God ms. su allowed me to take the msian studies test another day. else, i'm dead. oh and my dad almost bought me buka puasa food for dinner. ><

so, thats about it for today cos im so gonna be sleeping early. tsk tsk tsk, buka puasa food. okay, byeee!

untitled, they say.

i finally went to watch hairspray today with sara and jovy. ahaks, tracey turnblad is so cute. :) okay moving on, i ate this really nice ice cream! its like sticky and erm, the sticky kind la. hahah. :) cant remember the name but its rm3 for two scoops and its nice. :) yummy-licious! haha. oh oh, and i also satisfied my another craving- eating pork noodles! heheh :D its really good. its delicious. *grin* hahah. after the movie and some lepak-ing around, we went back to college for english.

yeah, notice jovy's face at the back seat. so tak bekerjasama.

so, we decided to take just the both of us but look! you can still see jovy's wonderful pose. :O

i went to topshop and tried on this top and i like it muchs! sadly its rm126- which is way beyond my means. ergh. so goodbye, pretty top. *sigh*

before sara left, we snapped another picture! :) yeah, jovy emo-ed cos we didnt wanna take one with him.

anyways, so in english class, we had this answering question session. questions from a previous assignment or exercise we were supposed to complete. ahha and that time, madeline and i thought we could skip and not complete it but today, kantoi. haha. thank God, sara told me well in advanced about it and told me some answers and how to get around the whole thingy. :) cos you see, if you dont "participate" enough, you'd have to write a 500 word essay on some independence thingy based on thomas jefferson's speech. so i really dont wanna do it- no time and not something i wanna do. :) and well, not knowing about anything that is related to it, i somehow found my way through by answering some of the questions, acting smart (i am smart. hahah), and erm, yeah. hahahh. amazingly, i got most (which is like 3 or4) of them correct :p hahaha. well, at least i dont have to write an essay during my raya hols :D hehehe. so, yay! and somehow, ms nurtina went missing during the class and we started talking and talking. and decided to take a pic. (again, yeah) hehe :)

dmay and myself. :)

on a lighter note, i might just be having ice cream after this! joy :) heheh. yeah, tell me about all the fats rushing in. hahah. and yeah, gotta study for another test! gah! and assignments! sigh. sometimes i just miss high school. shrugs.

tata! :)

i wished.

so last night i thought to myself, its the first time i wished my weekend somehow never existed. however, my weekend ended pretty well before i slept so i guess its not that bad afterall. heh :) and things are going pretty well now. hence, im thankful and am a happy girl now. well, assignment to be handed up! and i've got comp class to attend.

i've been craving for starbucks coffee for quite a long time. but sadly, i couldnt satisfy my cravings due to financial reasonings. BUT, my mom is so amazing and totally unpredictable cos she agreed to get me starbucks! :) woohoo! how cool is that? ahaks. yeah, so im an extra happy girl today. therefore, on my right hand side, is my caramel macchiatto! :) oh, how awesome. im so lovin' it. :) yay! sarah's happy with coffee.

and my mom seems alright with me going to far places during the december holidays with friends. i honestly can't wait for the holidays! but its pretty amazing i tell you. :) well, not s'pore though cos i still dont have my passport! ergh. but other states or erm islands?- that dont require a passport. heheh. :) yeah. that makes me even more happier now. i smell some extra freedom around :D

other than that, i am also looking forward to the raya holidays! thats like in a week's time! :) heheheh. yeahh! atul, im waiting :D heheh.

oh oh and seira called me this evening. she's so sweet and thoughtful i tell you! yeah, she called all the way from s'pore. poor girl, missing msia. :) im missing our add math classes very much! how we kinda made mrs chua annoyed at us (more of rais, jayson and johann annoying her) :p , but we still managed to do the crazy amount of questions and hw. hahahah. :) remember secret recipe? hahahha. :) and all those lame stuff we did and how you broke the chair! hahahahahaha! how we didnt want to sit in front, fighting for the back seats. hahahah. omg, i so miss those days. its emo-time. hahahha. but really la, i miss all of you tuition buddies! *pout*

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i love azalea! yeah, i'm...

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will miss you when you fly away! i'll save the emo-ness for when you really leave. :)

now, its just too early to think about that. heh.

reunion.

hey there! :)

so the AIM team 07' had a reunion dinner at farmland's porridge steamboat in subang. honestly the first time my cousin told me about porridge steamboat, i was like, "eew mann, how can anyone have porridge with steamboat?!" but well, i take my comments back and replace it with, "jom, lets go again!!" so yeah, faham faham la :)

hahaha. well, not all nineteen of us could make it but majority did and it was pure fun. :) jon yee simply hasn't changed abit. still the hillarious, silly and joker dude. hahaha. :) *thinks about prawns and egg* haha! yeah :) i absolutely miss the aim days where everything were simply awesome and great :) since there are no pics from the dinner, i just thought of posting up some other AIM pics we took :)

so, the picture paints a thousand words. err, no? :p

i roughly would think that it was our first group lunch at ikea :)

us, girls in our room :) it was really fun taking this pic. haha.

part of us at the sepang gold coast. :)

chinese new year made fun :)

part of the guys. :)

gone are the days where i could actually play a few songs that were almost correct, but slow. :p sad, huh?

so yeah, there are loads of pictures from AIM. but haha, these are the few pics to show you how awesome my AIM mates are. :) trust me, they are fun-filled people. :) and guess what? we even have the self-proclaimed most "humble" man on earth; jonathan yee. HAHAH. im so mean. but he said it :) ahaks! so tell me, how else un-fun can they all be? :) i so enjoyed AIM, not only the company but learning and gaining so much from the classes/lessons itself about God and His word, its no mistake that God made me go. i was ever so wrong of not wanting to go. heh. so right, you should all go! like really, you wont regret it at all. i promise you that :) its the best decision/choice one can ever make- that is to go for AIM.

p/s: i miss AIM! yeah, i do. ahaks. azy, i know you so wanna emo with me now. hahah :p

and im so happy that my msian studies test is on thursday instead of monday! :D alright then, nights people! :)