sheer stupidity.

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as i was heading home from college, my dad decided to stop by at one utama to get some coffee for a friend. so he parked the car at the side of the road, opposite the taxi stand (old wing). okay anyway, so as we were leaving, he signalled right to make a U-turn along the road. note that the road is a three lane road, or was it four. hrmm, but yeah, it was not those thin and narrow roads. then came this really stupid and idiotic motorcyclist, who tried to squeeze through my dad's right hand side. yes, he was making a U-turn to the right.

1. who is ever so dumb to try to squeeze through the right of someone who's going to turn right?
2. even more, you're on a motorcycle and not a car. yes, small but hallo! dont you wanna live? squeeze also squeeze properly la. omg, these ppl absolutely are like brainless chickens. seriously!
3. and do you even realise how much space there is? still wanna squeeze your tiny butt through?

not only was the motorcyclist at my dad's blindspot, my dad was driving at 20 km/h. note that it is really slow okay. next you hear a loud BANG to the right. normally you'd hear cars banging motorbikes down, but this is the total opposite. gosh! then before you react to look to your right, you see two youngsters flying off the motorcycle. yes, they really flew okay! their shoes, helmet, specs, and dunno what else flew off as well as the motorcycle flung to the other side of the road. my dad jammed the brakes and to find out that his WHOLE side mirror is GONE! really gone!!! okay, maybe just that. he stops at the side of the road, notices that not only the side mirror, his rims (those cover/capped ones. yeah i dont know how to explain) came off, side of his car dented and scratched. omg i tell you. it was a bad one.

seriously, the minute i saw those two people fly off the motorbike i was like, omg are they gonna die? i've seen motorcyclists flying off and dying or going into a seizure. i was literally traumatised and at the same time, totally pissed off at their stupidity. i was so ready to go and give them a piece of their mind. well, one thing is i thank God that they didnt die and only had like cuts and bruises. and i thank God that as they flew off, there were no other cars and the road was empty. and yes, i obviously thank God that my dad and i are safe.

fine, after damaging my dad's car, you say you dont have money to pay for the damage? omg, how stupid! you caused it and now you say no money. fine if its a kancil maybe its alright cos the repair cost wont be that expensive but excuse me misterrr! think abit man. you can afford to wear a pair of adidas superstar shoes and you have no money? ask your parents la, idiot! omg. they should so thank my dad for letting them go okay. yeah, amazingly and yet i dont understand why, my dad isnt asking them to pay for the damage done. and the cost to repair it will reach up to about 1k okay. ish ish, i dont know.

all i know for now is that, i really despise motorcyclists. please drive or rather cycle that thing properly and with proper caution can or not? sigh. and please value your life and have more common sense when riding your motorbike. squeeze here squeeze there. honestly, in my head i was like, "padan muka man. squeeze summore la, this is what happens." mean, i know. but seriously, logically thinking, squeeze when its safe and possible to squeeze. ergh. annoying crap!

alright, apart from all that, i am so thankful that the en102 research paper is coming to an end! yes, finally. i feel so free now but not that free afterall. assignments are piling up one after the other again! sigh. the sem is ending, and comes the presentations, big projects and the finals. oh, the agony.

well, thats all for today. the stupid motorcyclist totally pissed me off mann. sigh. anyways, back to assignments! more of, preparation for art presentation. hrmm, food art in japan. :) sounds pretty interesting. oh the sushi. :D hahaha. yeah, erm i would think that food makes me happy. heh. :p happy and hungryyyy! rawrr o.O

okay then, byeeee!

drowning.

blessed twenty-first, cherie! so big adyy! :D

i did realise that you have a jacket this colour :) i meant, the colour up above. hehe, random i know. anyways, hope you had much fun turning 21! :) im sorry im too busy to celebrate with you but we can celebrate when we're both free-er, okay :D heheh. anyways, its really been great getting to know you MORE and i am blessed! hehe. much love!

hey all! :)

yeah, its been some days since i've updated. i did attempt to do so, like yesterday, but it somehow didnt materialise. heh. :p

anyways, these past few days has been rather hard on me, pretty hectic indeed. i am so drowning amidst assignments and other responsibilities. assignment due dates are catching up with me. group members are getting really annoying- being irresponsible, not sticking to what was planned, trying to avoid work and pushing the workload to others. and then, they blame it all on miscommunication. pure nonsense, seriously. sometimes i prefer to work alone. ><

despite the annoyance and stuff, i realized that simple actions and outings with friends can really make your day. :) yeah, i do realize that this all is pretty random but i am thankful :) hehe. anyhow, i really should go study for a bit and then go to sleep :) and that wraps up today! heheh.

and oh yes, im looking forward to this week cos there simply are a few plans all lined up! :D fun fun plans. and im a happy girl. so yeah! hahaha. dinner and shopping and bbq and i dont know what else. *grins*

okay, byeee! :)

indescribable.

Indescribable, by Chris Tomlin

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From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea

Creation's revealing Your majesty

From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring

Every creature unique in the song that it sings

All exclaiming

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Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go

Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow

Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light

Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night

None can fathom

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Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

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Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangeable

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

almost a month ago, jo invited me to her church for 'Indescribable'. i was really touched by the video played entitled, 'Indescribable'. it showed how small and tiny we were in God's eyes and yet, He pays attention to us, He cares and loves us just the same despite us being so imperfect and annoying. yeah, we're like one little tiny spec in a tiny pixel of a spec in the pic up above. *points up* insignificant much, huh? so how can a God who is ever so mighty, majestic and wonderful who created the whole universe, would want to even send His only son to die on the cross for us, humans. well, that simply shows how much He loves us, doesn't it? and how much He values us- His children. :) i am really thankful indeed to have a God who loves me so much. :D

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indeed, He is indescribable. no humanly words can ever describe what a great, big and wonderful God we have :)

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and so, let us be the significant insignificance today! :)

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about them.

GIRLFRIENDS

p/s: we were all colorful too *wink*

the seven of us, 3 years ago. yeah, i know its an ugly pic. :p but i just had to put it up to show how much we've changed!! :D

and the seven of us, now :) 2007. a transformation, indeed!

yes, i am ever so thankful for my girlfriends. :) we've gone through thick and thin, the many years of puberty and nonsense and just many other things that simply brought all 7 of us together and we still are tight, yo! haha.

the seven of us possess very different tastes, personalities and attitude. its pretty amazing how the seven of us grew to be so close and yet, stay close up till today through all the years. 10 years? i have no idea. but we definitely have more years ahead of us, together! :)

okay anyways, so we went to t.g.i. friday's at the curve this evening to celeberate lydia's birthday. yeah, her eighteenth! :) and amazingly, all seven of us were able to make it! its been almost a year since we could all go out together- the seven of us. it was really good to be able to meet up with jee lian after a super long time since she's always busy-fied with.. *ahem*. :) yeah, you get it. but yeah, it was really fun, hillarious, and simply sweet. well, i'll allow the pictures to do the talking :) dont mind the berlambak-ness of pics. :) you seriously cant blame us cos its been a while we've all met up. heheh. :)

this was before the other 4 turned up :)

when the bday girl arrived- tadaa! *points to far right*

lydia, with the other 3.

uh-huh, i so lourve her :)

photo-taking session kinda started. ahaks, kinda ;p

i wonder where they were looking. hrmm.

jee and myself.

she is claryn! :)

we smashed some cake on her pretty face. :p

when the others went home, we went to take pic with the most inspired zip by nike. hahah. :D

thats basically it about today :) there are more pics but simply too much to post up and i've not received the others from the other cameras. yeah :) alright people, thats it for the day! goodnight all :)

p/s: i LOVE all six of you, muchos! <3

i give up.

so true, isnt it? well it is. :) at least for me.

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im naturally a very competitive person. yes, i've always been competing with others, be it in studies, sports, looks or anything for that matter. always striving and wanting to be the best and sadly, for the many thousand times i've done so, i barely made it to the top.

recently, i realized i've been competing very much that i always wake up and strive to be much better than other people. yes, without weighing out my weaknesses nor my strengths. however, with me having a rather low self-esteem, i try to boost myself up and to encourage myself that im better with doing this and that and stuff. when reality strikes, im struck right back to the ground, realizing that im nothing much. i realized that if i keep competing and trying to be that someone that God has not made me to be, it just wouldn't happen anyhow. so whats the use? its sad for me to realize that im not even up to my own standard of who i really want to be or be like. many times, i've been dragged down with thoughts like; im not good enough, im not like her/him, im not smart enough, im not pretty enough, she's/he's better than i am, im not talented/gifted, its just not my thing, i cant do it, etc. yeah, pretty childish huh? but really, it tends to bug me most of the time. so many times, that i keep hurting myself again and again just by thinking about it. i have even reached a point where its pretty hard for me to see the real value in myself, its so hard to see the good or rather whether is there any good in me. and in the end, i often doubt and tend to discriminate myself.

on the way home from youth today, i was thinking (yes, i think alot) about how much i've been trying to compete with others, wanting to appear better than the other person and all those kinda similar thoughts. i honestly felt really sad and ungrateful that i did not appreciate who God made me to be. yeah, its very human (or maybe its just me) to not want to be who you already are, to want to be somebody else who's better at everything, who looks better than you, who's smarter than you BUT i simply realized that God made each and every one of us different. different and special in His eyes, indeed. so instead of trying to impress other people or that special someone, why not we choose and focus on impressing God with what He has blessed us with? i know im wrong for discriminating and looking down on myself and stuff cos i will just be discriminating and looking down on God's creation and image, for we were created in His image. hence this is why im gonna stop doing this to myself.

yet knowing all this, knowing that i've nailed Jesus to the cross so many times for feelings this way, i am really trying to perfect my flaws. its really hard, i admit, but with God, all things are possible. and so, im just gonna leave this to God and not think too much about trying to be better and everything else. i give up on trying and wanting to be better than others, cos im just gonna be who i am- who God wants me to be.

p/s: yeah, i know its a pretty long and wordy post but i felt i should let it off my mind :) so hope you guys dont mind. :)

i thought.

okay, this *points up* is the pic that sara and i took before leaving the curve :) and very well before getting sick- food poisoning. see, we're so happy! :p we're still happy now though. haha.

anyways yeah, so today i thought that my food-poisoning was all over. at least, gonna be over. but no, it seems as though its still the same, just slightly better. *sigh* but nevertheless, i still thank God that im getting better! :)

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so my friday was rather interesting; in other words, i had fun la! :D yeah, notice the big grin. yeah so i planned to go to class late cos Ms. Nurtina always comes in late, you see. so i arrived about 4.40 (class starts at 4). oh i was supposed to arrive at 4.30 but it was raining! and the roads were pretty packed. haha. yeah :) so its not really my fault. i went into class and so Ms. Nurtina smiled and said "just sign your attendance and thats it for today's class". i was like "er huh? haha okay." yeah, so i travelled all the way to HELP just for a 10 minute class. hahaha. how fun, huh? o.O but at least i got my attendance :D hehe. was supposed to join jee and chris at centrepoint but i was pretty dizzy so i just headed back home to sleep. :)

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and yay! the holidays are here! :) term-break cum raya hols. so yeah :) however, i've got loads of assignments all piled up and im just so lazy to start! sighh. :( anyone's kind enough to lend a helping hand to the poor sick girl? :D hahah. :p nah, im hardworking ya know. so haha. yeah! i'll just do it myself. *grumbles*

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and to spm-ers! haha, study study study. spm's like very near :) i can so imagine how many of you are feeling now. its like mid october already. ;p no, im not rubbing it in. just wanting to boost you people to studyy! see, im so excited for you guys. :D okay, go study! honestly, i do miss school. so treasure your school days and study harddd!

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jangan melayari laman web/internet lagi tau. nanti, kesal kan baru tau :) jadi, padamkan/tutup komputer, buka buku dan belajar bersungguh-sungguh ya? nanti terlalu lewat untuk insaf. ;p

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p/s: i wanted to post up a pic of my bio book but i dont know where it is. haha. i prolly deleted it already. so hehe :) and i know the computer can be very very distracting. ;)

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okay then peeps, thats all for tonight! :) im off to my assignments. byeee. :)

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buka puasa food.

first and foremost,

blessed 18th hatchday, dungy (lydia)! :)

may you continue to grow more in the Lord, and stay pretty okay! :) and knowing you, dont be naughty during your 18th! :p much much loves, babe! :)

okay, other than wishing the birthday girl, let me tell you about my wednesday. it was pure fun i tell you. well, fun at the beginning la. so, sara and i went to the curve after class to eat doughnuts and to check out our work schedule at tribeca. (yeah, we're working there!) ahaks. after that, we went to taman tun to fetch rachel and then to join in the buka puasa crowd. you know, all those yummy and tempting food. being greedy, we bought quite alot of food- honey glazed chicken wings, beef rendang with lemang, cengkodok, sotong, kebab and sugar cane (the drink la!). yeah, i think that was all.

and only to find out today that the food was pretty dirty. gosh. and the consequences of dirty food is.. you pandai pandai think la okay. i know, pretty annoying. oh well! so much for indulging in good tasting food. prolly not that good afterall, huh? had to go see the doctor today which meant skipping my classes. thank God ms. su allowed me to take the msian studies test another day. else, i'm dead. oh and my dad almost bought me buka puasa food for dinner. ><

so, thats about it for today cos im so gonna be sleeping early. tsk tsk tsk, buka puasa food. okay, byeee!